今日係最後一日考試日.....
聽日原本聖誕聯歡可以唔返，
但我又答應左社工幫佢計時GAME
其實我根本唔想返.....
但我唔識拒絕.....
之後原本同某2位BLOG友傾電話傾得好開心.....
但下午，MSW打比我，
叫我23,24,25去做義工.....
我話23,24唔得閒，
就叫我去25日......
我唔想去呀，我呢排個MOOD都唔OK，仲去咩義工呀!!!!
點算呀，我唔識拒絕人，
佢話聽日打比我約時間了....
點解，我由細到大都係比人安排晒所有野~
你地明白我好辛苦嗎？
我真係好辛苦，其實我都有我的想法.......
但我不能表達，咁同一個活死人有咩分別~
我好想拒絕人，我好想呀!!!
但我又唔夠擔，點解呀，我唔細了，
我仲想比人幫我做決定到幾時呀？
我唔想咁呀，如果星期日要我去，我情願離開這世界，逃避所有野~
不如坦白說幫半日試試，幫人始要自願的，跟他說說你的意願！
回覆刪除[版主回覆12/21/2011 18:49:55]唉~多謝你呀
[ariesg回覆12/21/2011 18:16:22]沒事的，他們原意是好的，試想如果他們不了解你，怎可進１步助真正的需要呢，你也可行前ｌ步，有時候看似他們在協助自已，但另方面又是自己幫助了他們，是相輔相成的...
[版主回覆12/21/2011 10:17:29]唉~我真係唔夠擔呀
你又黎啦!!!!!! 佢地想你去做義工的目的, 不是想控制安排你的時間, 而係唔想你在佳節中, 一個人的時候又想著負面野! 不想你好似這一刻寫BLOG時, 腦海裡充滿著很辛苦的思想和壞情緒, 當你做緊義工的時候, 你的注意力就會轉移在正面的環境裡生存!你連自己都唔去幫自己, 所以佢地才真誠地幫你一把, 問題不是你唔識拒絕人! 而係你在未去做義工之前....已經轉了牛角尖, 把別人的幫助和愛心轉移為決定安排你的生命, 這樣你又不自覺地又行錯去魔鬼的面前了, 真正愛你的是單純的天使, 天使是願意無止境地等待你的改變和常常提點你, 你逃避是社工和CP對你的關愛,他們是同你一起行, 而不是帶你去魔鬼的身邊, 不是拒絕他們的愛心, 請你深深記住...當你想放棄的時候的一句正面之語: "山不轉路轉, 路不轉人轉, 人不轉心轉!"
回覆刪除[版主回覆12/21/2011 10:13:22]唉~我唔係唔想佢地幫，而係我真係應付不來~
Try having fun from doing volunteer work la !!!!!!!! I think it is good for you ? I had a whole group of volunteers when I worked in HK. They were having fun and self satisfaction . And they were good friends together too. They were helping each other during their young teen and young adult development.
回覆刪除[版主回覆12/21/2011 17:00:15]多謝你呀~我會盡力的，THANK
[Uncledan回覆12/21/2011 13:06:22]Don't worry ah..........MSW will offer you support . My volunteer group members all had the same feeling as you do now. However, all ( most ) of them after a month, few months....a years......2 years.........than they all had their confident improved....had different attitude to deal with their living difficulties..........they all became a best friends to each other after I left them to Canada.................Try your best.....do the best......I believe no one will say a "word" against you !!!!!!!(^0^)
[版主回覆12/21/2011 10:15:28]but I think I can:t do it,because我應付唔到呀
我都系人地叫我做乜.我都去做.唔識去拒絕..
回覆刪除我公司星期六都有個聚會，我都唔想去...又要交換禮物(我呢幾日為買乜禮物(金額一百元或以上)好煩.仲煩過為我三個姪子女買架).有時候都唔鐘意聖誕節.
[版主回覆12/21/2011 10:16:27]我都好唔鐘意聖誕節，又要交換禮物，煩~
既然你咁唔想去，今次試下大膽ＳＡＹ ＮＯ！只有試一次，你先會擺脫人地幫你做決定既命運。
回覆刪除[版主回覆01/04/2012 16:33:26]我唔夠膽呀